I am freaking out today.
Completely, utterly, totally losing it.
This research project related is not working out the way it is supposed to.
I haven’t worked with rural communities before and am therefore worried. In fact ‘worried’ is an understatement. I haven’t been this worried in a long while. Adding to my worries is the guy who heads the location. The guy is one laid lack, overly chilled out fellow who is so blasé about this assignment that he hasn’t bothered to get resources together for us. The guesthouse has been booked from the coming Monday when we are arriving on Sunday. Fabulous, we will just spend one night on the streets. How hard would that be? He has to provide us with two staff members to help out in the data collection but didn’t bother to do so till he was pushed in a corner and asked to supply names of two people right away. He was quite alright with asking someone to volunteer. What did it matter if the volunteer was no good at interacting with people or didn’t have a rapport with the people? He is supposed to assist us in organising the study in terms of getting people together and organising space and time but he has decided to go on a casual leave. How fantastic is that!?
As of now a whole lot of aspects of this research are in a fluid state and I am just not happy with that. How I wish I wasn’t a planner. If I were a go-with-the-flow kinda person, I wouldn’t be half as worried.